What should I call my lead girl character in my story im writing?( intresting, exotic games)?

Here is my story so far ,i know there is mistakes, but this is just a draft??

Chapter 1

Normal, what is normal. Living happy ever after. Yeah right there is no such thing as happy ever after only the real world. And the real world sucks. In the real world there is no where you can hide. No where to run. You have to stick it out, no matter how hard it is. But to tell you to tell you the truth there is people who have it worse then us. But when you’re going through something extremely bad, you think that there is no one in the world who understands your pain. But there is always someone who will understand you, to tell you the truth they are probably going through the same thing as you. When your going trough a bad patch there is always someone to talk to, don’t think of the worse way out…..

I have tried everything, but nothing works, I just want o get away from this torture. But there is no way out I have tried everything, tried telling, tried taking my life did any of those things work? NO! It just made it worse ….there is nobody in the world that can feel what I am going through. First I though home was the answer, but home was just as worse. There is no point in living..What is the point of living if your unhappy and your life is in shambles. Why does everything happen to me ….well I know the answer….Because I am bad luck …I am the reason that my parent fight. I am the reason for everything. Why did god even make me … I am just bad luck to everyone. I have no money. .no friends …no where to turn…no one there to catch me if I fall. People always tell me that life is full of choices… Life is always hard. Well you got that right. Life is always hard, miserable, gloomy and dark. Life is full of horrible surprises for me. Never nice surprises. My mum says its because I am an EVIL GIRL. And bad things happen to evil girls. But what I don’t understand is that she does bad things, but I get punished for it. But why won’t mum understand that life is full of consequences and that if she makes a mistake she should not punish me. Its not fair. Life is like a shadow that you can never get rid of. A dark shadow that always follows your every move. I am still young and I don’t deserve to go through this torture.

I’ve always been the one that cleaned up after mum. When she came back after a party with a hangover …I was the one who done everything…… I was there when she cut herself with a knife… I was through everything and I still will be… but if she carries on this way I wont. Mum always makes me feel so small and unsafe. Well there is dad but that is a complete different story. I want to get away from this torture…but I have no where to hide…no where to run. All I want is a little a bit of freedom ….. But I never got that….because I’ve always had to look after mum. First of all I was happy looking after mum….thinking it was a game a joke maybe…..I thought mum was treating me like an adult. But then I figured it out that it wasn’t any of those things it was real….

Real life. Sometimes I use to cry myself to sleep….huddle into a ball rocking back and forth…telling myself everything will be alright. But I knew deep inside my heart that things would never be the same. My mum has always thought of me as a mistake …..A waste of space and time. She always told me that she wished I was dead and wished I was never born, and that I was a waste of space and time. I’ve always been the one that cleaned up after mum. When she came back after a party with a hangover …I was the one who done everything……I was there when she cut herself with a knife… I was through everything and I still will be… but if she carries on this way I won’t. Mum always makes me feel so small and unsafe. Well there is dad but that is a complete different story.

I want to get away from this torture…but I have no where to hide…no where to run. All I want is a little a bit of freedom ….. But I never got that….because I’ve always had to look after mum. First of all I was happy looking after mum….thinking it was a game, a joke maybe…..I thought mum was treating me like an adult. But then I figured it out that it wasn’t any of those things it was real…. Real life.

It’s not like I had any friends to hang out with or to go to their house. Mum never use to let me socialize with any friends. I was always a loner. The kids at school use to give me weird looks, and that was just the kids the teachers were just as worse. I got use to it after a while. I learnt that if I kept quiet than everything would be happy. I just hid behind my curtain of hair.

Mum just walked through the door. I bet any minute now she is going to call me my name. What shall I do? I need to get away from all this but how? I’ve got it I’m going to run away. I’ll have to do it fast, I don’t want mum to be suspicious. Now the only problem is what shall I take? It’s not like I’ve got some loads of stuff. So it should b
What should I call my lead girl character in my story im writing?( intresting, exotic names)?*

sorry typo.
I bet any minute now she is going to call me my name. What shall I do? I need to get away from all this but how? I’ve got it I’m going to run away. I’ll have to do it fast, I don’t want mum to be suspicious. Now the only problem is what shall I take? It’s not like I’ve got some loads of stuff. So it should be easy. I’ve got my school backpack and my suitcase, from when I stayed over at dad’s. I think that should be enough to put all m stuff in. I can take my….? Well that’s the problem what shall I take? In my backpack I’ll take my notebook, my pencil case, my laptop and charger ( dad brought me that) my well mum’s perfume, I think that’s all that I need in my backpack. Now in my suitcase I think I will put all my clothes in there, a few pair of shoes. A few coats and that should be enough. Underwear , socks, and my phone , camera and their chargers. and my purse will stay with me. I’ve got money saved up with me , birthdays , Christmases, all the money that dad gave to me.
I just don’t wear to go I could go dad’s , but he’s got his new girlfriend living with him, and lets just say his flat isn’t that big. So where should I go? I heard a voice , it will be mum I better go check it out.

“ I’m going out with Steven , I’m staying the night there so make your own dinner . Ok bye”
Now is my chance yes finally. I heard the car drive off.

I waited about 10 minutes. I was sure mum had gone to The Moonlight (the restaurant) near all the clubs. Much further away from the train station. I grabbed my purse put in my coat pocket , put the small backpack in the suitcase , and I was ready.

I looked back at everything , everything that I would miss. Well that wouldn’t be much now, would it. A tear came rolling down my left check, I wiped it off. This place is not worth of crying for. I had just enough money to last me about 2 months. I took some money from mum, I deserved it , after everything I done for ever and never a thanks or presents or nothing.
I walked out of my front door, down the pebbly driveway and onto my street. I checked my watch 8:50 pm. I hear a scream from my next door neighbour (a shocked scream) England just scored. The World Cup season. I’m not one for football, but I smiled at least England are off to a good start. I was at the Train Station, and was waiting in the queue to buy my ticket.

“Where to love”? the ticket person asked me. I gave him a once over. Sleazy was the only word that described him. “Central London” I replied “That will be £12.50 then” I gave him a £20.00 pounds, and I got £7.50 change back. I looked at what time my train will come
Platform 4 21:10. I went into Subway and got myself a Veggie Patti sub with coke I was starving I hadn’t eaten since I really can’t remember , that proved it was long time.

I went back to the train station, and to Platform 4. The train came in less those 5 minutes. I hopped on and found a seat with a table on perfect.


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